Saturday June 21, 2008 at 10:47 am
Chill pill
I’m prone to crankiness. My friends know this. My sister knows this. My ex-boyfriends know this especially.
For the past few months, I’ve been particularly unsettled. My friends have been graduating college without me. They’ve been planning weddings and landing stable jobs and even some, GULP, having children. They’ve been moving into houses, which is probably the most significant mind-boggling notion that’s been picking incessantly at my left brain.
A moment ago, I was loading clothes into my washing machine, and I thought to myself, how lucky am I, that I get to complain about doing multiple loads of laundry for my own clothes. How lucky am I that I get to walk downstairs and throw them in, without having to pack a nylon bag and drag it three blocks away to a machine I’d have to stuff with quarters?
So I’ve experienced my fair share of Ramen. So I can’t go to a movie tonight because I don’t get paid until Monday.
Right now, I have a job that I love. Love. It will never make me rich, but I have not once dreaded getting out of bed to go.
I have enough gadgets, whether purchased myself or not, that I deserve to be broke for the next three years. Two years. (Get off my blog, karma.)
I have a relationship that’s gotten to the point where I’m not sitting in front of my TV, trying to distract myself with So You Think You Can Dance, because I’m obsessing over why didn’t he call, who is he with, and does he still feel the same way today?
I have a puppy that will give me his paw if I ask him nicely.
I have music. I can’t dance. Shhh.
I do not have a migraine.
I have you. Yes, I do. Hey. Get back here.
I suppose I could go stitch this all onto a pillow (I am grateful for the lawn that needs mowing, windows that need cleaning…). And then I can find someone especially cocky and shove that pillow — oh hey! I can sew! List complete.
I’m prone to crankiness. My friends know this. My sister knows this. My ex-boyfriends know this especially.
For the past few months, I’ve been particularly unsettled. My friends have been graduating college without me. They’ve been planning weddings and landing stable jobs and even some, GULP, having children. They’ve been moving into houses, which is probably the most significant mind-boggling notion that’s been picking incessantly at my left brain.
A moment ago, I was loading clothes into my washing machine, and I thought to myself, how lucky am I, that I get to complain about doing multiple loads of laundry for my own clothes. How lucky am I that I get to walk downstairs and throw them in, without having to pack a nylon bag and drag it three blocks away to a machine I’d have to stuff with quarters?
So I’ve experienced my fair share of Ramen. So I can’t go to a movie tonight because I don’t get paid until Monday.
Right now, I have a job that I love. Love. It will never make me rich, but I have not once dreaded getting out of bed to go.
I have enough gadgets, whether purchased myself or not, that I deserve to be broke for the next three years. Two years. (Get off my blog, karma.)
I have a relationship that’s gotten to the point where I’m not sitting in front of my TV, trying to distract myself with So You Think You Can Dance, because I’m obsessing over why didn’t he call, who is he with, and does he still feel the same way today?
I have a puppy that will give me his paw if I ask him nicely.
I have music. I can’t dance. Shhh.
I do not have a migraine.
I have you. Yes, I do. Hey. Get back here.
I suppose I could go stitch this all onto a pillow (I am grateful for the lawn that needs mowing, windows that need cleaning…). And then I can find someone especially cocky and shove that pillow — oh hey! I can sew! List complete.
What a refresher! I think we all need to take time to think about what we do have… rather than what we don’t! :)
yeah, really.
Strange hybrid image of you and my grandmother there… good Saturday fun.
Wonderful post! I definitely get into my moods and often need to just sit down and remember all the great stuff going on too. Have a great day! ; )
You are so cute. I know what you mean though, I already have 7 weddings this year (most of whom are friends that are my age if not younger than me!) and the rest of my friends are either continuing on to Grad school or have awesomely paying posh jobs.
Whereas I’m broke.
Then again, I’ve been traveling around, living the way I had always dreamed. Albeit impractical of me, I still wouldn’t trade it in for what they have :)
You hit the proverbial nail on the head.
hi Rachel…
I see ur comment in the busblog and come here to say hi xD and discover ur very nice blog…
now u are in my feeds, so we are “friends in blog” i guess hehehehe…
bye…!!
While it’s always good to keep the whole big picture in sight, indulging in a little grouchiness/crankiness is good now and then.
I have my very own bowling ball and shoes. Life complete.
this is adorable. i need to make one of these. although i’m not sure if dare to part with my crazies momentarily.
I think you should tape this post to your fridge, and force yourself to add to it when you are having one of those days.
Here here!
Plus…incredible writing talent. You have that as well.
Some things that await you after college.
(1) Many of those friends who leave you during college? They’re kinda like the test drive friends of better people you’ll meet via your job, personal interests and so on.
(2) The food generally gets better. Regrettably, however, coin-op washing machines will stay more or less the same.
Good luck to you. Thanks for commenting on my blog last week, always nice to get a comment from a new/unfamiliar reader.
Kind regards,
Sonny Amou
Someone found you from the busblog. That’s hot.
Ah, growing up is overrated.
I would like one of those pillows.
Please.
Always nice to take stock of what you have and leave out the have-nots – even if the haves list is shorter than you would like.
i need to make a new one of these lists. good post!