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July 21, 2008
You know how you have a list of things that you usually avoid bringing up, for fear of how it’ll affect others’ perceptions of who you are?
Here’s mine.
I only listen to mainstream music. I am more jealous of the girls my age who are starting families than those who are on their way to successful careers. I throw around the fact that I love to travel, even though I will dread for weeks the flight to my destination. I’ve never had a female best friend.
I haven’t once enjoyed college as much as I thought I was supposed to. I didn’t really have my first real drink until I turned 21, and I don’t think I’ll ever be comfortable with nightlife culture. I miss high school.
I’m holding myself back from blurting out a very public castration of one very icky ex (otherwise, I’ve dated a couple really awesome people, and am therefore not normally bitter). I don’t recycle on my own time. I constantly struggle over how far to go, and the tone I’m setting, with the things I write. During my first year of college, I skipped a few classes to teach myself how to code for the main purpose of improving the appearance of my blog. I critically regulate pictures of myself.
I thought Sex and the City was stupid. There are still some things I’m avoiding.
Categories: Daily
July 21st, 2008 at 5:56 am
That was wicked brave. You get some serious high fives for that. I’m not sure I could do that.
July 21st, 2008 at 8:46 am
For the record - none of those things would ever alter my perception about anyone, ever, probably.
and man, do I ever feel you re: schooling.
July 21st, 2008 at 9:08 am
I’ve never had a female best friend either. Some things just aren’t as great as everyone makes it out to be.
July 21st, 2008 at 9:36 am
Good on ya! Feels good don’t it?
July 21st, 2008 at 10:09 am
No offense… but I guessed most of those things about you ;) Your writing gives it away. You have a voice.
Aside from the flight thing, I didn’t realize that. I find alcohol helps.
July 21st, 2008 at 11:30 am
I don’t like SATC either!
We’re practically twins!
July 21st, 2008 at 12:12 pm
it’s good to air these things on a blog. it’s cheaper than therapy!
July 21st, 2008 at 12:19 pm
I definitely do not fit in nightlife culture, and I don’t think I’d want to. The noise, the smells, the dancing drunk people — I get enough of that at home.
And yay! Another female who does not like Sex and the City! There were one or two good things about it, I’ll admit (their friendship, mainly) but it annoys me that a lot of women come to New York City to live out their Carrie and Cosmo fantasies. It’s as sad as wanting to be a Disney princess when you grow up. (Unless it’s Belle. Belle was cool.)
July 21st, 2008 at 12:19 pm
I miss high school too sometimes.
But I think that’s just because the real world can be kinda shitty.
July 21st, 2008 at 12:56 pm
“I haven’t once enjoyed college as much as I thought I was supposed to.”
Me neither.
July 21st, 2008 at 2:53 pm
i’m there with you on the bitter castration of icky exes…’ve had to restrain myself several times over the past 2 weeks from posting horrible things about him (in my defense, he is a horrible person so it’s ok)
i tend to never reveal that i’m obsessed with lolcats…people find it strange and never quite look at me the same after i tell them
July 21st, 2008 at 6:34 pm
Sex and the City is stupid.
July 21st, 2008 at 6:51 pm
I agree with SO many of these things (college, music, night life…). Just remember, however many of these things you have, everyone else has just as many if not more.
July 21st, 2008 at 8:57 pm
Right. I have a confession too. I wasn’t posing when I was drinking from that glass. No one ever taught me how to sip properly. This is a cry for help.
July 21st, 2008 at 10:37 pm
I needed to read this. I feel like I walk around daily trying to hide bits and pieces of myself - or at least trying to control how others perceive me. It’s all become second nature.
July 21st, 2008 at 10:45 pm
Leslie - That’s such a good comparison.
Strawberry - I can definitely relate. On both counts.
Dan - Stop your crying.
amanda - I think everyone does, even if in some small way.
July 22nd, 2008 at 5:10 am
I think you’re wrong about never having a female best friend.
July 22nd, 2008 at 8:09 am
You’re human…perhaps one of the best characteristics! Even better - you are open about yourself, I think more than you realize. Don’t be so hard on yourself either. I think, if anything, rather than changing peoples’ perception of you, you, in fact, changed peoples’ perception of themselves! :-)
July 22nd, 2008 at 10:36 am
Emma - UNTIL NOW.
Eric - You’re most wonderful.
July 22nd, 2008 at 5:40 pm
You are so funny. And I love this list.
(I am with you 100% re SATC.)
July 22nd, 2008 at 6:25 pm
You know how I feel about the things you write. You’re incredible with balancing seriousness and silliness.
You’ve been through a couple (that I know of) really tough things that you could offer a really unique perception of, whether here or elsewhere.
July 23rd, 2008 at 7:18 am
Regarding nightlife culture, I totally agree, and I wish people would be more upfront about this in general. I think there are a lot of people like this; in fact, I think a majority of people don’t like clubs and bars but no one really admits it. And, people go in desperation not because they really want to, but because it is very difficult to meet new people.
July 23rd, 2008 at 9:30 pm
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July 23rd, 2008 at 10:26 pm
i’m so with you on almost everything on this list. except for the satc part. it’s good, i tell you. just watch each episode a few more times, skipping the first season.
July 24th, 2008 at 8:54 am
God. The lists I could make. What a weird, wonderful world it would be if none of us hid our weirdness. (And I’m ashamed to admit it, but I only recycle when other people are watching too).
July 24th, 2008 at 10:17 am
i always wonder why people are so nostalgic and in love with “college life” - like 50 year olds who still go hang with their frat buddies at homecoming every year and get smashed. i think to myself…was that really the BEST time of their lives? is there nothing else to dream and enjoy? it’s kind of something i never hope to aspire to - because college REALLY wasn’t all that.
July 27th, 2008 at 2:54 pm
The public castration thing? I think you should go for it. I mean, it’s not like to have to use his real name. A lot of us already have a pretty good idea of who it is.
Oh, I see now. ;)
Anyway, any boy who was icky to you is probably an icky person in general, and I wouldn’t let someone so scummy get to you. Besides, the only good thing he had going for him was the fact he could claim he was dating you.
Oh…I see now.
:)
July 29th, 2008 at 9:13 am
I really don’t have any insightful input but man-o-man do I miss high school too. Literally, the best 4 years of my life. So carefree, great friends, absolutely no worries. I feel like I am so far away from that time and those feelings even though it was only 7 years ago. I don’t think I will ever be as close to my friends as I was in high school, and that makes me a bit sad.
July 31st, 2008 at 11:57 pm
your honesty is refreshing. …i won’t even book a flight I’m so terrified. :)
August 7th, 2008 at 2:11 am
I wasn’t fond of the movie either, bah! And most likely you’ll be glad you held back on that public castration, later on. ;) Because I’ve been there. Shitballs.